Yesterday I "rode" a cat 1 crit in Holland. Typically for this country the circuit was less than a kilometre, with numerous 90 degree bends, some cobblestones, speed bumps and some signposts jutting out into the road.
Upon arriving I saw the finish of the Cat 2 race and some guy crashed on a bend and flew into someone's front garden. Straight away I had this "don't want to be here feeling" and this did not improve when I warmed up on the circuit and realised it was the worst kind of circuit for a non sprinting - not very good bike handler like myself.
I lined up at the back of the grid, I was really nervous and immediately took up the last wheel, declining opportunities to move up the field. On the cobblestone section I had to sprint to stay in contact and my back wheel was bouncing everywhere, I braked too much into the bends and allowed gaps to open up every time which made me feel nauseous to close, and I had no motivation so I quit after 10 minutes. Now my girflriend thinks I am a quitter. I'm disgusted with myself because I know I can do so much better. It's a mental "block" about criteriums.
Things is - I hate criteriums....I find them boring, dangerous, and I know that with my physical attributes and the way I ride I will never do well in them, but I haven't yet finished one and I really need to to have any respect for myself as a cyclist. Also, here in Holland there are ONLY criteriums....
I know what I need to do - start at the front, get to the front, stay at the front, I know about the accordion effect and how you shouldn't be in a position where you have to brake in the corners, I know about saving energy...and I know I can ride fast enough, I know I train enough and I know I have the ability because on the familiar circuit at my club I'm one of the strongest riders. However - I also know I lack experience, lack cornering ability and don't pack much of a sprint. So when the big race starts I get nervous and allow myself to drift to the back as a deliberate "strategy", then I find ways to justify quitting.
Does anybody have any advice on how to break this habit? So far I've come up with 1) enter more criteriums 2) don't ever ride near the back 3) don't ever quit...
are there any motivational strategies and / or criterium specific tips anyone thinks might help?
Upon arriving I saw the finish of the Cat 2 race and some guy crashed on a bend and flew into someone's front garden. Straight away I had this "don't want to be here feeling" and this did not improve when I warmed up on the circuit and realised it was the worst kind of circuit for a non sprinting - not very good bike handler like myself.
I lined up at the back of the grid, I was really nervous and immediately took up the last wheel, declining opportunities to move up the field. On the cobblestone section I had to sprint to stay in contact and my back wheel was bouncing everywhere, I braked too much into the bends and allowed gaps to open up every time which made me feel nauseous to close, and I had no motivation so I quit after 10 minutes. Now my girflriend thinks I am a quitter. I'm disgusted with myself because I know I can do so much better. It's a mental "block" about criteriums.
Things is - I hate criteriums....I find them boring, dangerous, and I know that with my physical attributes and the way I ride I will never do well in them, but I haven't yet finished one and I really need to to have any respect for myself as a cyclist. Also, here in Holland there are ONLY criteriums....
I know what I need to do - start at the front, get to the front, stay at the front, I know about the accordion effect and how you shouldn't be in a position where you have to brake in the corners, I know about saving energy...and I know I can ride fast enough, I know I train enough and I know I have the ability because on the familiar circuit at my club I'm one of the strongest riders. However - I also know I lack experience, lack cornering ability and don't pack much of a sprint. So when the big race starts I get nervous and allow myself to drift to the back as a deliberate "strategy", then I find ways to justify quitting.
Does anybody have any advice on how to break this habit? So far I've come up with 1) enter more criteriums 2) don't ever ride near the back 3) don't ever quit...
are there any motivational strategies and / or criterium specific tips anyone thinks might help?