Hi. I was diagnosed with type 2 in Jun 03. Did a Hba1C in Sept - 6.9. Did another recently last week - 5.4. I am not on meds but on diet only. I should be happy with my recent test, but it seems some people I know around me have passed on due to complications related with diabetes. I have a bad feeling that I could go the same way as they do. I am 39. Some say that I have still many years to live. But, I don't want to spend years suffering a slow painful death. I don't want to be a burden. Sometimes I feel my efforts is pointless. Maybe its better to just end it as soon as possible. I have never felt like this in my life. Its no use to carry on.