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so about a month ago got the bad news from the specialist, tablets for another 3 months, to say I was disappointed was a complete under-statement, had about 2 days of depression and muttering to myself and thinking long and hard about the next decision I made, but no matter how I tried to explain my situation to the specialist he seemed to be on a completely different World.
who knows my heart/body better, ME or some guy who looks at me with some instruments and decides I should help towards the mass production of medication to provide profits to the drug companies (I think I may have watched the constant garderner on the plane when I travelled) so I was on a conscience trip, but surely, its me I know how I feel, I have been watching it, pushing it, maintaining it and occasionaly abusing (WITH Alcohol) it for the last Ive lost count years, its me, so I took a radical step, I decided to keep taking the tablets
on my terms, so Im still taking them, just not quite the quantity I should be, I had read a lot of postings and even some books about the issue and its amazing the number of people that take matters into there own hands.
So I decided ok, I can do this, but I have to ease it back in so the last month or so has been a slow month of building back up and limiting the number of sessions where I push my heart rate to high, so being very careful about it all.
The cycling is progressing quite well, I am very happy, starting to push myself harder and harder and the good news is my heart recovers quite quickly, does not stay elevated and I dont feel any side effects and im not at my level I was before, but I am quickly getting back there.
The Running is coming, but a bit slower as I expected, a good example was about 2 weeks ago, started running and my heart blew up on me, panic, stress, shear scare-sh*tless ness rushed over me, so I stopped took a few deep breaths and started walking, heart rate gradually came down, stablised to where it should be and I went from there, gradually managed to push the heart rate higher and higher from start to finish, but never higher than 150, so for me and running, that was pretty ok, turned out to be a very positive run, so made me realise, I just had to take it slowly, and the last few weeks my long runs have been very enjoyable, look at the scenery a bit more and enjoy the fact I am out and taking it all in, after all, I have plenty of time to push myself harder later on this year
Swimming, well lets just say Im having a break from it, my brother starts training with me proper so we are joining a swim squad, going to do it properly! *gasp* *shock* *horror* so my swimming will come back.
I have limited my exercise to 1 session a day, for the last month, with a rest day per week, soon I will start introducing a 2nd session every 2nd day and then from there, up to 2 sessions a day again, with a rest day, I am finding the rest day more and more important, I dont so much despise the rest day now, I really enjoy it, forget about exercise and then Tuesday morning, im off.
so I have had a bit of a mental battle am I being stupid, doing the wrong thing, but I think I have been very careful about it, I get plenty of rest, I make sure I eat regularly, fairly healthy, try to keep the fluids up, enjoy each session and make sure I get enough sleep and the support from my wife, has been amazing, without which I would probably being lying on a sofa somewhere, I think 1 morning she literally kicked me out of the house and said "dont come back for 2 hours, no wait, 1 hour, dont go to silly to soon"
so about a month ago got the bad news from the specialist, tablets for another 3 months, to say I was disappointed was a complete under-statement, had about 2 days of depression and muttering to myself and thinking long and hard about the next decision I made, but no matter how I tried to explain my situation to the specialist he seemed to be on a completely different World.
who knows my heart/body better, ME or some guy who looks at me with some instruments and decides I should help towards the mass production of medication to provide profits to the drug companies (I think I may have watched the constant garderner on the plane when I travelled) so I was on a conscience trip, but surely, its me I know how I feel, I have been watching it, pushing it, maintaining it and occasionaly abusing (WITH Alcohol) it for the last Ive lost count years, its me, so I took a radical step, I decided to keep taking the tablets
on my terms, so Im still taking them, just not quite the quantity I should be, I had read a lot of postings and even some books about the issue and its amazing the number of people that take matters into there own hands.So I decided ok, I can do this, but I have to ease it back in so the last month or so has been a slow month of building back up and limiting the number of sessions where I push my heart rate to high, so being very careful about it all.
The cycling is progressing quite well, I am very happy, starting to push myself harder and harder and the good news is my heart recovers quite quickly, does not stay elevated and I dont feel any side effects and im not at my level I was before, but I am quickly getting back there.
The Running is coming, but a bit slower as I expected, a good example was about 2 weeks ago, started running and my heart blew up on me, panic, stress, shear scare-sh*tless ness rushed over me, so I stopped took a few deep breaths and started walking, heart rate gradually came down, stablised to where it should be and I went from there, gradually managed to push the heart rate higher and higher from start to finish, but never higher than 150, so for me and running, that was pretty ok, turned out to be a very positive run, so made me realise, I just had to take it slowly, and the last few weeks my long runs have been very enjoyable, look at the scenery a bit more and enjoy the fact I am out and taking it all in, after all, I have plenty of time to push myself harder later on this year
Swimming, well lets just say Im having a break from it, my brother starts training with me proper so we are joining a swim squad, going to do it properly! *gasp* *shock* *horror* so my swimming will come back.
I have limited my exercise to 1 session a day, for the last month, with a rest day per week, soon I will start introducing a 2nd session every 2nd day and then from there, up to 2 sessions a day again, with a rest day, I am finding the rest day more and more important, I dont so much despise the rest day now, I really enjoy it, forget about exercise and then Tuesday morning, im off.
so I have had a bit of a mental battle am I being stupid, doing the wrong thing, but I think I have been very careful about it, I get plenty of rest, I make sure I eat regularly, fairly healthy, try to keep the fluids up, enjoy each session and make sure I get enough sleep and the support from my wife, has been amazing, without which I would probably being lying on a sofa somewhere, I think 1 morning she literally kicked me out of the house and said "dont come back for 2 hours, no wait, 1 hour, dont go to silly to soon"
