I cannot do it. For over two years now I have been trying to loose weight, only to find myself becomming bigger and bigger. I dream of being beautiful, having an attractive body, I dream of my husband 'wanting' me instead of go out, have fun and find the job of my dreams. And yet dreaming is all I do. Everytime I try to embark on a new 'diet' I just end up being frustrated because the weight does not come off quickly enough. So I eat again... not just eat... I binge. I eat so much I get sick afterwards. I know I am doing wrong. And I know what I need to do to loose weight and stop this insanity, I feel I am almost an expert in fitness and nutrition. I am trapped inside this body that I loathe. Looking at myself in the mirror is an absolute terror.. I try to avoid it as much as I can. I feel tired, I feel bad, ... sometimes I don't even feel at all. I apologise for the nature of this post. I guess I just needed to get it out... maybe -allthough I hope not- there are more girls out there who feel they are in the same situation. Maybe I am just looking for a bit of sympathy. Or for someone to tell me to stop making these lame excuses and take control of my life. I just cannot go on like this. Once again, sorry for this. And congratulations to all of you who keep on fighting their way to victory. I admire your strength. In heart and soul, Nancy.