So I've been on Atkins for a little over three weeks now.
(I hate this part, I know I need to type up the basic background info
if I want any useful input, it's just so depressing.)
I'm an extremely resistant loser, father is morbidly obese, rest of
family is overweight. I've been overweight since age eight. Nothing
has ever caused me to lose weight except phentermine. The only upside
to that is I have never tortured my body with yo-yo dieting (except
the one round of phen loss), because I can't lose weight.
I've made several attempts at Atkins over the last ten years, usually
giving up after anywhere from a few days (lack of willpower) to a few
weeks (lack of movement on the scale--my weight will usually stay
rock-solid to the half-pound, even if I am in ketosis).
This is the longest I have stayed faithful, at induction levels of
carbs. I've gotten a lot more control over my eating now, much less
impulsiveness and cravings. I've been in small to mod ketosis the
whole time. I am very happy to finally be sticking with it, I think it
is partially due to maturity/focus levels. And also due to the fact
that I haven't weighed myself. There is nothing as discouraging as the
same exact numbers. Every. Single. Day.
No, my scale is not broken.
Being that I'm not willing to torture myself with weighing (on a daily
basis), I've been trying to judge by my clothes getting looser. So far
they haven't changed. In fact, tighter the last few days. Maybe PMS,
but I would hope there would be some sort of baseline change. Sigh. I
understand that until I am willing to weigh myself, there's only
limited advice that can be offered.
Anyway, while feeling bloated and gross yesterday, I finally started
with Fitday, and have discovered that I'm eating far fewer calories
than I would have guessed. In the 1500 cal range, 50-60% from fat
(based on only 2 days of data, of course), at 5'5", 33 and moderate
activity level (I'm a fidgety/constant housework/errands/can't sit
still person). I'm very exact with the portions and whatnot when I am
filling in what I have eaten, down to butter and condiments. I cook a
lot, I know what an ounce is and I mostly only use fresh stuff anyway.
So I'm just wondering, (god I can hardly type it because it just
seems like the ultimate rationalization), is it possible that I am
having trouble on my lowcarb attempts due to not eating enough? I've
seen my maintenance calories listed as anywhere from 2100 to 2600 (!!)
but I am really dubious of that whole starvation threshhold thing,
especially as I know I can't trust my body/brain to be reasonable
about what it is telling me for hunger levels.
Well, guess I partially needed to journalize a little, but feedback is
appreciated. Going to continue to log in Fitday, and may venture to
try the scale at the start of the next cycle.
Thanks for reading.
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~210/*/150
Started 1/3/05
*Not weighing till reference jeans are loose.
Scarred by previous scale experiences.