Ok, so I have snorted drugs maybe 4 times in my life, which
is not a lot compared to the real drug addicts. Three of the
times it was crushed ritalin pills and the other time some
mda/speed powder, this happened in late 2002/early 2003. The
day after taking that mda/speed powder a weird event
happened, I started feeling weak, I quit watching Fight Club
with my friends and wandered around the house because the
film was making me scared (i was freakin high) then I felt
like I could collapse to the ground anytime and my heart was
beating very fast, my judgment wasn't altered btw, I am an
experienced drug user and this kind of thing never happened
before, my heart really felt like it was gonna rip out my
chest, I told my friends in a panicky state to leave because
I wasn't feeling well. I used 100mg of Trazodone then the
drugs finally faded, i fell asleep. The next day I felt like
I had broken something inside myself.
A few days after snorting the last time I was waking up with
blood dripping from my nose for a week long until some
afternoon where I got a huge headache after getting in a
dispute with my mother, I was very angry and I could feel
the blood rushing through my head because I was so tense.
The headache got worse and worse, I got to the hospital but
I went back home after 6 hours of waiting, I just couldn't
take the waiting anymore and my headache was killing me, I
wanted to sleep.
Then some morning soon after I got a severe left earache, I
got to the hospital, a nurse inspected my ears and said
there was some blood near my left eardrum but nothing more
so I went home again because the waiting was too much once
again. The doctor prescribed me Clavulin, he suspected an
inner ear infection. I used the antibiotic to no avail. I
then resumed my life as if nothing happened but then I
noticed some kind of depression settling in, my grades at
school dropped a little and I was oversleeping.
Later in April/May 2003 I started to experience disturbing
symptoms, pins and needles in the face, back of the head,
jolts inside my neck/head, weird floating (that disappears
as soon as I try to focus on it) dot in my vision eye
doctors can't explain... I was a fan of marijuana before but
at this point it was making me nervous so I reduced the
dosage and smoke it infrequently from then on. I used to
sing a lot to the music I listen to and without bragging I
was doing well but now I can't keep on tune for a long time,
it seems like my left vocal chord won't follow and then I
start coughing. ( I never ever smoked cigarettes and now
rarely smoke marijuana). My eyes have started looking weird,
seems like my left pupil is smaller, but my doctor says it
isn't (?). Sometimes the facial symptoms do not limit
themselves to pins and needles, I feel pain around my left
temple, left ear and left area around my left eye and
sometimes some tremors on the area round my cheekbone. If I
move my eyes around in circle I will twitch in the face.
Sometimes pressure seem to build inside my head (!). I have
noticed that when I work at school I always have my left
hand touching my head when i'm writing, it seems to
alleviate symptoms.
In november 2003 my family doctor ordered me to take an EEG,
which came up normal without surprise, I know EEG's are
mostly useless. I since switched of family doctor.
From this point things haven't really changed, i'm still in
college, I do well in my maths and physics classes but I
can't keep up with classes where I need to talk with other
people and interact, my behavior has changed. I used to be a
social person; I am now a loner. It seems I get nervous with
anyone who I am not close with. I have taken a CT of the
sinus, ears and orbits today on the order of my ENT, this
following surgery to my deviated septum.
Through thorough research on the internet since a year I
have a hunch that I may have suffered
cavernous/venous/saggital sinus thrombosis following
infection inside my nose. All of the internet site seems to
indicate that you should get treatment in the following days
but in my case I couldn't : getting treatment was hard and
doctors didn't take me seriously except the ENT. Will my ENT
find anything on that CT scan ? Am I still treatable ? I
cannot think I will have to live like this the rest of my
life, seems like the life was sucked out of me. Is my self
diagnosis rather good ? I know I am no doctor but after
searching for a year about the thing that happened to me I
have pinpointed it to a sinus stroke of some sort. It seems
like my cranial nerves III, IV,V and VI are damaged.
P.S I know i didn't have a brain attack (normal stroke),
none of my side is paralyzed, my speech isn't
slurred and my cognitive capacities are relatively
in good shape.