" I am bored. I am bored with life", wrote Suzy Gonzalez. "I cannot possibly think of anything I
want to do that is worth doing. I just want to sleep all day".
That is telling me that she needed a change in her diet. My guess is that junk food made her tired.
Instead of a psych who prescribed her anti-depressants that did not work, she should have an expert
checking her diet and prescribing her exercises and a purpose in life. Whenever I ate lots of carbs
and sugar, I felt tired like Suzy. Whenever I cut that stuff out, I become the active myself again.
I think her shrink was also a complete failure, otherwise he should have spotted that she was
serious about ending her life.
There is nobody on earth who does not feel once in a while down. That includes the rich, the famous
and the beautiful. It creeps up on anyone. But others are better in coping with it, they don't kill
themselves over the clouds.
When I feel the blues, I go in action. I work as much as I can, and I forget any sad feelings, even
pain, during doing so. I know that the start sometimes can be hard. It often is like getting up in
the morning in a house in winter without heat and having to shower, and the water is also cold. But
when you made the start, when you are in dry warm clothes, you feel better.
I suggest you find something can you stand behind, something that is close to your heart. Pick
something you can engage yourself in, but make sure it is a good and just cause and does not hurt
anybody. Give it all you have. Take on much work. If you work and you still have time to think about
your own misery and about your pain, you have to put more in your plate.
After such a day, in my bed at night, I think about what I have accomplished and are even sort of
amazed at myself about what a single person can do in just 12 hours. Then I think about the
depressed sad feeling that I had the morning, and I realize that I worked it away. It works like a
dream. I win the battle against the blues ALL THE TIME, just through actions.
Think about it and try it out. Don't listen to false friends who want you dead.
Barbara Schwarz
"Hi, Barbara,
I have to agree with you regarding Karen Spaink. Karin is a woman who hands out suicide advice to
anyone, including young, depressed children. She has done this for years. She also told
little_chris (LC) that she would help LC to die in anyway she could. I feel Karin is a murderer of
sorts. And her advice could cause permanent harm, if not death. Karin is not an expert on dying,
but some people believe she is. That is the real danger, as most of her methods from her methods
files are unproven and could cause the user of her methods files to become even worse off than they
are. Karin is using the Internet to wage her own personal war on the world. Hers is a campaign of
hatred and hurt, rather than of love and compassion. I feel Karin is truly evil. And it's sad that
the Internet has become a platform for people like Karin Spaink to cast out their hatred on
unsuspecting suicidal people."
And:
On Fri said:You are right, Karin Spaink is evil. I was shocked when I read what she is doing. I wonder that no
law enforcement agency came yet after her.
Karin knows her law pretty well. I believe the Netherlands have different suicide and assisted
suicide laws. And from what I have read of her postings, she studies these laws carefully. She
probably would not get away with this in the USA, AU, or Canada.
Quoted message said:She has method files for those activities?
Karin's method files are here: ash.spaink.netnazgmethods.htmlOpen ↗
And this is a picture of Karin Spaink: spaink.netparool hogerhand1.jpgOpen ↗
something to do with her confusion later on in her life. I really don't believe Karin is a happy
person at all. I think Karin is truly depressed.
Quoted message said:That must be also an odd "church" she is a member in, the Church of Euthanasia, in my eyes, a
killer organization. I think most people who want to die don't suffer from unbearable pains, but
rather are just depressed.
In my opinion, some of the members of the CoE are rabid psychotics, including this person,
boboroshi: "]http:[email hidden]
Quoted message said:There is much that can be done against it. Poor guy that LC, too bad nobody good took him under
his wings.
LC met all the wrong people when he came to ASH. The problem with ASH and ASM is these two groups
attract the kindest, most humble, yet hurting people on this planet. On the other hand, these two
groups attract people like Karin Spaink who do nothing but help others to die, no matter what the
circumstances are. Karin almost appears to prey on suicidal people, in my opinion. I have watched
her do this for many years.
Quoted message said:Karin is like a snake, that preys on their victims. It is despicable that she does not go out of
her ways to salvage people, which a normal person would do. I find her absolutely disturbed and
dangerous.
Yes, you are correct, she is just what you said she is, disturbed and dangerous.
Quoted message said:I found your information interesting. I posted the content in the newsgroups, but I did not reveal
your e-mail address. You are safe from attacks.
OK, that is fine. I appreciate you keeping my name out of the picture.
Bye for now. And I enjoy your posts. I am glad to see someone finally take this issue up with
Karin Spaink."
And here is more of my pen-friend's information:
"I hope that some people can see that Karin Spaink's motives are mostly driven by her own demons,
rather than any sort of love and compassion. I do believe euthanasia is appropriate for long-term
cancer sufferers and alike. But I just don't believe it is appropriate to be handing out suicide
advice to young teenagers who are depressed over the loss of their first love, etc.. Yes, those
times are very difficult for young children. But these issues are nothing that cannot be dealt with
through counseling and just time. But the real danger here is, these kids will show up on
alt.suicide.methods, only to meet with people like Karin Spaink. And Karin Spaink does not ask how
old these people are or what their circumstance is. Karin simply hands out her methods of exit and
turns her back. I don't know how many people Karin has helped to die. But I can't help but wonder
what hell the families of these children go through after they are dead. It's the families that
always have to pick up the pieces by people like Karin. They have to pay the funeral costs, clean up
the blood or the vomit and live with the loss of their loved ones for many years to come. My father
committed suicide many years ago and it took many years for myself and my other family members to
deal with this loss.
Have you read the article about Suzi Gonzales? Suzi was a frequent poster on ASH and she had some
assistance in her death. And no one intervened in her plans, even though many people knew she was
going to kill herself. And Suzi's family was devastated and very angry about this. Suzi was 19 years
old. Here is the article. suicidereferencelibrary.com413.htmlOpen ↗
Take care and bye for now."
And:
"Thanks for writing back, Barbara.
Boboroshi has been labelled in the media as being a psychotic, recently. Here is the article:
bbc.co.uksuicide.shtmlOpen ↗ "
(I don't promote psychiatry and psychiatrists, or drugs to get over suppression, but these guys
mentioned in the article are right on that subject. The government should take those that talk
others into suicide seriously. Barbara Schwarz)
Listen again to my pen-friend:
"Whether or not Boboroshi is a psychotic, I don't know. But his postings seem to suggest that he way
out in left field. Boboroshi, claims to be a Satan worshipper. So, it appears Boboroshi has
surrounded himself with evil and misery. And anyone who I have met in the past who has asked for
evil and hatred to come into their lives, seems to have found this evil and hatred, in spades.
I don't support either Karin Spaink or Boboroshi. To me, they are both very disturbed people. And as
I mentioned before, the Internet has become their platform to foist their hatred on the world. And
perhaps the Internet is their killing ground. And the only thing that would ever silence people like
Karin Spaink and Boboroshi would be prison time. But I don't suppose either one of them will end up
in prison, unless they slip up and cross the line, becoming directly involved in the deaths of other
people. And this may have happened already, judging by some of the comments that Karin Spaink has
posted on Usenet regarding Little Chris.
Take care and bye for now, Barbara."
Make your own minds up about the information that my pen-friend provided, he spoke from his heart,
and he got it right.
I personally tend to think that the people that tell others to kill themselves are often not
suicidal, rather that they are icecold calculating killers and just are play the act of being
suicidal themselves.
The only thing that I read that Karin objected to was that she is a
tried to explain her confusion and evil intentions towards others. But she certainly can't object to
anything else, as the evidence of her despicable activities are out there on the net.
I hope that people sue her, Boboroshi and people like them, for each cents they have. I hope that
people investigate with whom their dead relative or friend had contact and what those desperate
people downloaded from the web, which suicide plan they followed. And I hope that law enforcement
agencies all over the world come after the killers in disguise.
I was asked by Rasta Robert, why I, as a Scientologist, would want to save people, as Scientologists
believe the spirits, the souls, the thetans can't be killed. It is true that the spiritual being,
the thetan, (that is you) can't die, he lives on forever, but all people are born again. They will
have new bodies and will go through the same problems they could not handle this lifetime. If
somebody kills himself this lifetime, he will do it again and again in future lifetimes. The
depression never ends, and there will be eternal suffering if the person does not learn how to grow
out of depression, beat depression and if she does not becomes a survivor.
Don't follow wrong advice, folks, there is a way for happiness, for each one of you.
I am also upset about the bomb instructions that David Touretzky, a CMU "educator" has on his
website, as he shows terrorists the way. People can order through his website all kind of books to
make weapons and weapons of mass destruction. He is completely irresponsible, and I find him nothing
less but evil.
I don't want people to be murdered, lying in bloodsheds, ripped into pieces. Human beings don't
deserve that, they deserve to be save and happy. People that are murdered through a terror act or
violence might suffer in their comming lives a great deal. They might have forgotten what has
happened to them, but subconsciously, it is with them and will influenence them badly.
More respect of human lives is necessary!
Barbara Schwarz
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