RAFL wk 3 - Prairie Roots

PR, I like the way you look at things. Yes we are lifetimers... And hey, a 1 pound loss is nothing
to sneeze at!
--
Nathalie from Belgium
134.1/102.9/minigoal 99.9 Goal 68 Kg
134.1/102.10/minigoal 220.3/Goal 150 pounds RAFL 105.3/102.9/96 Kg
134/1.103/212 lbs "Prairie Roots" <[email hidden]> wrote in message
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Quoted message said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times this
week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see that I
didn't fill up my journal for last Saturday when I went back for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths, and 5ths on the
yogurt. Certainly a healthier overeating frenzy than my (formerly) usual binge foods of choice.
But a binge none the less. A rose by any other name...

Oh well, my l-lb. decrease got me to my mini-goal of 165, meaning that I'm now 20 lbs from my WW
goal. Is that unbelievable or what? It still seems unachievable. So I'm not thinking that far
ahead. I've set my next mini-goal at 162 for 70 lbs total loss. That's as improbable a notion as I
can handle today.

In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including (especially)
weight loss. Why bother? It takes a lot of effort, and for me at least, requires a measure of
attention to self I've not been accustomed to giving myself. For me, weight loss is a project, not
unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was giving a year or two
ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting, because
I get tired of giving so much thought to what I eat, what I'm weigh, figuring out what clothes
still fit, etc. She asked me what I would do if I quit. Would I maintain? Or gain? Maintain, of
course, I told her. And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give
thought to what I eat or what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and self-disgust.

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."
--
Prairie Roots week 48: 232/165/WW goal 145 RAFL week 3: 167/165/154 next mini-goal: 165 (20 lbs
from WW goal) started WW 22-Feb-2003 | 10% target: 1-May-2003 5'4" | 50 | F

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Great job. Your total weight loss is very impressive. I also like your attitude on keeping yourself
on track. We are certainly in it for the long haul.

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Quoted message said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times this
week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see that I
didn't fill up my journal for last Saturday when I went back for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths, and 5ths on the
yogurt. Certainly a healthier overeating frenzy than my (formerly) usual binge foods of choice.
But a binge none the less. A rose by any other name...

Oh well, my l-lb. decrease got me to my mini-goal of 165, meaning that I'm now 20 lbs from my WW
goal. Is that unbelievable or what? It still seems unachievable. So I'm not thinking that far
ahead. I've set my next mini-goal at 162 for 70 lbs total loss. That's as improbable a notion as I
can handle today.

In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including (especially)
weight loss. Why bother? It takes a lot of effort, and for me at least, requires a measure of
attention to self I've not been accustomed to giving myself. For me, weight loss is a project, not
unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was giving a year or two
ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting, because
I get tired of giving so much thought to what I eat, what I'm weigh, figuring out what clothes
still fit, etc. She asked me what I would do if I quit. Would I maintain? Or gain? Maintain, of
course, I told her. And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give
thought to what I eat or what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and self-disgust.

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."
--
Prairie Roots week 48: 232/165/WW goal 145 RAFL week 3: 167/165/154 next mini-goal: 165 (20 lbs
from WW goal) started WW 22-Feb-2003 | 10% target: 1-May-2003 5'4" | 50 | F

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Wonderful loss! And great post in general. I can remember feeling so
"done" both in the one eights when I finally got there, and in the one
Sevens. I am so so so so so so so glad I did not stop short of goal. I did
that. Tons of times. Every time I went back up, after all, if I was not
"normal weight" anyway, what difference a pound or two? Or ten? Or twenty?
Now, at goal, there is a line drawn in the sand. I can fuss around about
being safely Under the line, but the idea of over is repellent in the
extreme to me. I would have to give up, for me, some credibility or
something. I had no idea I would feel like this. You are so incredibly
"able" to do this. You have done this already (lose 20) three times with
leftovers. I found the last ten was actually not the hardest ten for me.
Go figure. I will send those thoughts your way.
"Prairie Roots" <[email hidden]> wrote in message
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Quoted message said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times this
week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see that I
didn't fill up my journal for last Saturday when I went back for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths, and 5ths on the
yogurt. Certainly a healthier overeating frenzy than my (formerly) usual binge foods of choice.
But a binge none the less. A rose by any other name...

Oh well, my l-lb. decrease got me to my mini-goal of 165, meaning that I'm now 20 lbs from my WW
goal. Is that unbelievable or what? It still seems unachievable. So I'm not thinking that far
ahead. I've set my next mini-goal at 162 for 70 lbs total loss. That's as improbable a notion as I
can handle today.

In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including (especially)
weight loss. Why bother? It takes a lot of effort, and for me at least, requires a measure of
attention to self I've not been accustomed to giving myself. For me, weight loss is a project, not
unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was giving a year or two
ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting, because
I get tired of giving so much thought to what I eat, what I'm weigh, figuring out what clothes
still fit, etc. She asked me what I would do if I quit. Would I maintain? Or gain? Maintain, of
course, I told her. And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give
thought to what I eat or what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and self-disgust.

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."
--
Prairie Roots week 48: 232/165/WW goal 145 RAFL week 3: 167/165/154 next mini-goal: 165 (20 lbs
from WW goal) started WW 22-Feb-2003 | 10% target: 1-May-2003 5'4" | 50 | F

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Congrats on that pound, PR. 🙂 I thought I was pretty OP this week and exercised 5 times! (YEAH!)
and still gained 1 pound. So I'm hoping it's a muscle thing... LOL

--

~Kristin O~
272/241.8/172

"Prairie Roots" <[email hidden]> wrote in message "]news:[email hidden]...

Quoted message said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times this
week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see that I
didn't fill up my journal for last Saturday when I went back for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths, and 5ths on the
yogurt. Certainly a healthier overeating frenzy than my (formerly) usual binge foods of choice.
But a binge none the less. A rose by any other name...

Oh well, my l-lb. decrease got me to my mini-goal of 165, meaning that I'm now 20 lbs from my WW
goal. Is that unbelievable or what? It still seems unachievable. So I'm not thinking that far
ahead. I've set my next mini-goal at 162 for 70 lbs total loss. That's as improbable a notion as I
can handle today.

In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including (especially)
weight loss. Why bother? It takes a lot of effort, and for me at least, requires a measure of
attention to self I've not been accustomed to giving myself. For me, weight loss is a project, not
unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was giving a year or two
ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting, because
I get tired of giving so much thought to what I eat, what I'm weigh, figuring out what clothes
still fit, etc. She asked me what I would do if I quit. Would I maintain? Or gain? Maintain, of
course, I told her. And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give
thought to what I eat or what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and self-disgust.

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."
--
Prairie Roots week 48: 232/165/WW goal 145 RAFL week 3: 167/165/154 next mini-goal: 165 (20 lbs
from WW goal) started WW 22-Feb-2003 | 10% target: 1-May-2003 5'4" | 50 | F

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It IS ACHIEVABLE and you ARE ACHIEVING it.

Congrats on yet another loss, oh, greedy but thinner one! (G)

Coming up with goals as you have done is a great way of going.

I don't think there is anyway of avoiding the constant monitoring and consciousness. It is probably
a consequence of the 'addiction' mentality and fact that with drugs/alcohol you can give them up
completely. You cannot give up food. And we have to be willing to accept our weaknesses - FOOD. But,
yes, that is an issue, a real issue watching, weighing, watching, thinking, pushing stuff away,
limiting stuff, FOREVER. Is it worth it - you have to decide and RE-decide. And keep deciding. Am I
there? Right now. Redecide, redecide.......

I don't wish you luck - I wish you and me and the others WILLPOWER because that is what it will
take. Until, hopefully, it becomes natural.

Prairie Roots said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times this
week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see that I
didn't fill up my journal for last Saturday when I went back for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths, and 5ths on the
yogurt. Certainly a healthier overeating frenzy than my (formerly) usual binge foods of choice. But
a binge none the less. A rose by any other name...

Oh well, my l-lb. decrease got me to my mini-goal of 165, meaning that I'm now 20 lbs from my WW
goal. Is that unbelievable or what? It still seems unachievable. So I'm not thinking that far
ahead. I've set my next mini-goal at 162 for 70 lbs total loss. That's as improbable a notion as I
can handle today.

In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including (especially)
weight loss. Why bother? It takes a lot of effort, and for me at least, requires a measure of
attention to self I've not been accustomed to giving myself. For me, weight loss is a project, not
unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was giving a year or two
ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting, because I
get tired of giving so much thought to what I eat, what I'm weigh, figuring out what clothes still
fit, etc. She asked me what I would do if I quit. Would I maintain? Or gain? Maintain, of course, I
told her. And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give thought to what I
eat or what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and self-disgust.

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."

Weigh to go, Prairie Roots. A pound lost is quite a nice loss! Now stop being greedy ;-D -- but I do
know what you mean - maybe you'll have a nice big loss this coming week. Wish you luck. Elaine K

Prairie Roots said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times this
week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see that I
didn't fill up my journal for last Saturday when I went back for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths, and 5ths on the
yogurt. Certainly a healthier overeating frenzy than my (formerly) usual binge foods of choice. But
a binge none the less. A rose by any other name...

Oh well, my l-lb. decrease got me to my mini-goal of 165, meaning that I'm now 20 lbs from my WW
goal. Is that unbelievable or what? It still seems unachievable. So I'm not thinking that far
ahead. I've set my next mini-goal at 162 for 70 lbs total loss. That's as improbable a notion as I
can handle today.

In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including (especially)
weight loss. Why bother? It takes a lot of effort, and for me at least, requires a measure of
attention to self I've not been accustomed to giving myself. For me, weight loss is a project, not
unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was giving a year or two
ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting, because I
get tired of giving so much thought to what I eat, what I'm weigh, figuring out what clothes still
fit, etc. She asked me what I would do if I quit. Would I maintain? Or gain? Maintain, of course, I
told her. And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give thought to what I
eat or what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and self-disgust.

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."
--
Prairie Roots week 48: 232/165/WW goal 145 RAFL week 3: 167/165/154 next mini-goal: 165 (20 lbs
from WW goal) started WW 22-Feb-2003 | 10% target: 1-May-2003 5'4" | 50 | F

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PR:

Congrats on losing 1. It is nothing to sneeze at.

I understand your reluctance to give this much thinking room to WW or to eating period BUT like you
said quitting means going back to my former way of eating which means gaining. This is as good as it
gets baby!! You are always going to have to think about what and how you eat. I'm just hoping that
it becomes so automatic that I hardly notice it.

Connie

Prairie Roots said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times this
week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see that I
didn't fill up my journal for last Saturday when I went back for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths, and 5ths on the
yogurt. Certainly a healthier overeating frenzy than my (formerly) usual binge foods of choice.
But a binge none the less. A rose by any other name...

Oh well, my l-lb. decrease got me to my mini-goal of 165, meaning that I'm now 20 lbs from my WW
goal. Is that unbelievable or what? It still seems unachievable. So I'm not thinking that far
ahead. I've set my next mini-goal at 162 for 70 lbs total loss. That's as improbable a notion as I
can handle today.

In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including (especially)
weight loss. Why bother? It takes a lot of effort, and for me at least, requires a measure of
attention to self I've not been accustomed to giving myself. For me, weight loss is a project, not
unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was giving a year or two
ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting, because
I get tired of giving so much thought to what I eat, what I'm weigh, figuring out what clothes
still fit, etc. She asked me what I would do if I quit. Would I maintain? Or gain? Maintain, of
course, I told her. And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give
thought to what I eat or what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and self-disgust.

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."
--
Prairie Roots week 48: 232/165/WW goal 145 RAFL week 3: 167/165/154 next mini-goal: 165 (20 lbs
from WW goal) started WW 22-Feb-2003 | 10% target: 1-May-2003 5'4" | 50 | F

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--

Cheers,

Connie Walsh

241.5/204.5/155 RAFL 210.5/204.5/198.5

1 pound gone is great PR! Don't forget that you also started some new exercise routines, which could
very well be causing those newly overworked muscles to retain some water. Congrats on the loss and
on reaching your mini-goal. I'm sure that next mini-goal will be yours very soon.

Your analogy on *when are you going to be done* is totally on the mark ... NEVER! I remember going
through the same thoughts, then realization hit me that reaching the maintenance stage was only
another beginning. While the losing end of the game might be done (sometimes temporarily), the rest
of the ideas I have tried to learn have to stay with me forever. Putting them into permanent
practice is the beginning of maintanence, and I don't think there is ever an end to that ... not
that I want to think about anyway. <G>

Joyce

Prairie Roots said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times this
week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see that I
didn't fill up my journal for last Saturday when I went back for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths, and 5ths on the
yogurt. Certainly a healthier overeating frenzy than my (formerly) usual binge foods of choice. But
a binge none the less. A rose by any other name...

Oh well, my l-lb. decrease got me to my mini-goal of 165, meaning that I'm now 20 lbs from my WW
goal. Is that unbelievable or what? It still seems unachievable. So I'm not thinking that far
ahead. I've set my next mini-goal at 162 for 70 lbs total loss. That's as improbable a notion as I
can handle today.

In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including (especially)
weight loss. Why bother? It takes a lot of effort, and for me at least, requires a measure of
attention to self I've not been accustomed to giving myself. For me, weight loss is a project, not
unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was giving a year or two
ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting, because I
get tired of giving so much thought to what I eat, what I'm weigh, figuring out what clothes still
fit, etc. She asked me what I would do if I quit. Would I maintain? Or gain? Maintain, of course, I
told her. And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give thought to what I
eat or what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and self-disgust.

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."

Prarie,
You will hopefully see al big loss next week.
Irma
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Quoted message said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times this
week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see that I
didn't fill up my journal for last Saturday when I went back for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths, and 5ths on the
yogurt. Certainly a healthier overeating frenzy than my (formerly) usual binge foods of choice.
But a binge none the less. A rose by any other name...

Oh well, my l-lb. decrease got me to my mini-goal of 165, meaning that I'm now 20 lbs from my WW
goal. Is that unbelievable or what? It still seems unachievable. So I'm not thinking that far
ahead. I've set my next mini-goal at 162 for 70 lbs total loss. That's as improbable a notion as I
can handle today.

In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including (especially)
weight loss. Why bother? It takes a lot of effort, and for me at least, requires a measure of
attention to self I've not been accustomed to giving myself. For me, weight loss is a project, not
unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was giving a year or two
ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting, because
I get tired of giving so much thought to what I eat, what I'm weigh, figuring out what clothes
still fit, etc. She asked me what I would do if I quit. Would I maintain? Or gain? Maintain, of
course, I told her. And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give
thought to what I eat or what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and self-disgust.

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."
--
Prairie Roots week 48: 232/165/WW goal 145 RAFL week 3: 167/165/154 next mini-goal: 165 (20 lbs
from WW goal) started WW 22-Feb-2003 | 10% target: 1-May-2003 5'4" | 50 | F

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You're doing so great PR! Another pound down is wonderful!
--
Brenda
209/177/150 RafL goal 165

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Quoted message said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times this
week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see that I
didn't fill up my journal for last Saturday when I went back for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths, and 5ths on the
yogurt. Certainly a healthier overeating frenzy than my (formerly) usual binge foods of choice.
But a binge none the less. A rose by any other name...

Oh well, my l-lb. decrease got me to my mini-goal of 165, meaning that I'm now 20 lbs from my WW
goal. Is that unbelievable or what? It still seems unachievable. So I'm not thinking that far
ahead. I've set my next mini-goal at 162 for 70 lbs total loss. That's as improbable a notion as I
can handle today.

In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including (especially)
weight loss. Why bother? It takes a lot of effort, and for me at least, requires a measure of
attention to self I've not been accustomed to giving myself. For me, weight loss is a project, not
unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was giving a year or two
ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting, because
I get tired of giving so much thought to what I eat, what I'm weigh, figuring out what clothes
still fit, etc. She asked me what I would do if I quit. Would I maintain? Or gain? Maintain, of
course, I told her. And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give
thought to what I eat or what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and self-disgust.

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."
--
Prairie Roots week 48: 232/165/WW goal 145 RAFL week 3: 167/165/154 next mini-goal: 165 (20 lbs
from WW goal) started WW 22-Feb-2003 | 10% target: 1-May-2003 5'4" | 50 | F

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Hi, Prairie Roots, Good post. Congrats on the loss and the reflections.
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Quoted message said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times this
week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see that I
didn't fill up my journal for last Saturday when I went back for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths, and 5ths on the
yogurt. Certainly a healthier overeating frenzy than my (formerly) usual binge foods of choice.
But a binge none the less. A rose by any other name...

Oh well, my l-lb. decrease got me to my mini-goal of 165, meaning that I'm now 20 lbs from my WW
goal. Is that unbelievable or what? It still seems unachievable. So I'm not thinking that far
ahead. I've set my next mini-goal at 162 for 70 lbs total loss. That's as improbable a notion as I
can handle today.

In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including (especially)
weight loss. Why bother? It takes a lot of effort, and for me at least, requires a measure of
attention to self I've not been accustomed to giving myself. For me, weight loss is a project, not
unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was giving a year or two
ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting, because
I get tired of giving so much thought to what I eat, what I'm weigh, figuring out what clothes
still fit, etc. She asked me what I would do if I quit. Would I maintain? Or gain? Maintain, of
course, I told her. And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give
thought to what I eat or what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and self-disgust.

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."
--
Prairie Roots week 48: 232/165/WW goal 145 RAFL week 3: 167/165/154 next mini-goal: 165 (20 lbs
from WW goal) started WW 22-Feb-2003 | 10% target: 1-May-2003 5'4" | 50 | F

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Hey thanks, Nathalie. I might whine a lot, but I'm not sneezing! <G>

Prairie Roots

Nathalie W said:

PR, I like the way you look at things. Yes we are lifetimers... And hey, a 1 pound loss is nothing
to sneeze at!

Thanks Laura. I'm pleased with my loss this week; shocked and awed about my progress thus far. I
still think this is happening to someone else! (The mind is a terrible thing to lose. <G>😉

I find myself impatient to be DONE. But when I think about what I mean by that, I recognize that I'm
still carrying the delusion that being done means abandoning everything I'm learning here. So this
week I'm working on remembering that weight loss isn't analagous to a 26-mile marathon with a finish
line that signals me to stop running. Weight loss is my training for the real marathon: mindful and
healthy eating/living until the end of my life.

Prairie Roots

Laura said:

Great job. Your total weight loss is very impressive. I also like your attitude on keeping yourself
on track. We are certainly in it for the long haul.

"Prairie Roots" <[email hidden]> wrote in message
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Quoted message said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times
this week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see
that I didn't fill up my journal for last Saturday when I went back for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths, and
5ths on the yogurt. Certainly a healthier overeating frenzy than my (formerly) usual binge foods
of choice. But a binge none the less. A rose by any other name...

Oh well, my l-lb. decrease got me to my mini-goal of 165, meaning that I'm now 20 lbs from my WW
goal. Is that unbelievable or what? It still seems unachievable. So I'm not thinking that far
ahead. I've set my next mini-goal at 162 for 70 lbs total loss. That's as improbable a notion as
I can handle today.

In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including (especially)
weight loss. Why bother? It takes a lot of effort, and for me at least, requires a measure of
attention to self I've not been accustomed to giving myself. For me, weight loss is a project,
not unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was giving a year
or two ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting, because
I get tired of giving so much thought to what I eat, what I'm weigh, figuring out what clothes
still fit, etc. She asked me what I would do if I quit. Would I maintain? Or gain? Maintain, of
course, I told her. And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give
thought to what I eat or what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and self-disgust.

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."
--
Prairie Roots week 48: 232/165/WW goal 145 RAFL week 3: 167/165/154 next mini-goal: 165 (20 lbs
from WW goal) started WW 22-Feb-2003 | 10% target: 1-May-2003 5'4" | 50 | F

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OK, I have this dual-thinking thing going. Sometimes I express both sides. Sometimes only 1 side
gets the floor.

Weight-wise I don't feel done. For the first time in 25 years, 167 feels fat to me (did I just type
167? That was my weight 2 weeks ago. I'm at 165, which also still feels fat to me. My head is having
such a hard time keeping pace.) What I want to quit is thinking all the time about is what I'm
eating. And that's the very thing I can't quit. The two--my weight and what I eat--are correlated, a
fact I denied for 49 years and that I can't deny any longer.

Thanks for pointing out that I've lost 20 lbs three times already. That's some perspective I
sorely need.

I send thoughts your way as well.

Lesanne said:

Wonderful loss! And great post in general. I can remember feeling so "done" both in the one eights
when I finally got there, and in the one Sevens. I am so so so so so so so glad I did not stop
short of goal. I did that. Tons of times. Every time I went back up, after all, if I was not
"normal weight" anyway, what difference a pound or two? Or ten? Or twenty? Now, at goal, there is a
line drawn in the sand. I can fuss around about being safely Under the line, but the idea of over
is repellent in the extreme to me. I would have to give up, for me, some credibility or something.
I had no idea I would feel like this. You are so incredibly "able" to do this. You have done this
already (lose 20) three times with leftovers. I found the last ten was actually not the hardest ten
for me. Go figure. I will send those thoughts your way. "Prairie Roots" <[email hidden]> wrote in
message "]news:[email hidden]...

Quoted message said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times
this week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see
that I didn't fill up my journal for last Saturday when I went back for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths, and
5ths on the yogurt. Certainly a healthier overeating frenzy than my (formerly) usual binge foods
of choice. But a binge none the less. A rose by any other name...

Oh well, my l-lb. decrease got me to my mini-goal of 165, meaning that I'm now 20 lbs from my WW
goal. Is that unbelievable or what? It still seems unachievable. So I'm not thinking that far
ahead. I've set my next mini-goal at 162 for 70 lbs total loss. That's as improbable a notion as
I can handle today.

In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including (especially)
weight loss. Why bother? It takes a lot of effort, and for me at least, requires a measure of
attention to self I've not been accustomed to giving myself. For me, weight loss is a project,
not unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was giving a year
or two ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting, because
I get tired of giving so much thought to what I eat, what I'm weigh, figuring out what clothes
still fit, etc. She asked me what I would do if I quit. Would I maintain? Or gain? Maintain, of
course, I told her. And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give
thought to what I eat or what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and self-disgust.

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."
--
Prairie Roots week 48: 232/165/WW goal 145 RAFL week 3: 167/165/154 next mini-goal: 165 (20 lbs
from WW goal) started WW 22-Feb-2003 | 10% target: 1-May-2003 5'4" | 50 | F

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Prairie Roots
232/165/WW goal 145 joined WW Online 22-Feb-2003

Thanks Kristin.

Kristin said:

Congrats on that pound, PR. 🙂 I thought I was pretty OP this week and exercised 5 times! (YEAH!)
and still gained 1 pound. So I'm hoping it's a muscle thing... LOL

Prairie Roots
232/165/WW goal 145 joined WW Online 22-Feb-2003

Can I say "Yay I'm doing it!" and "You talking to me?" at the same time? I think I've got a multiple
personality disorder when it comes to weight. <G>

I'm working on accepting that doing what it takes may never become natural, as in "Grant me the
serenity to accept the things I cannot change..."

Thanks for the input, Fred. Right now I'm redeciding whether to eat lunch now, an hour and a half
late, or just skip lunch altogether since I'm going out for dinner tonight at a steakhouse where a
1-lb filet of salmon is on the dinner menu. Too bad I'm not on Atkins. <G> Hm, I think a 0-pt salad
now might be just the ticket so I don't overindulge later.

Prairie Roots

Fred said:

It IS ACHIEVABLE and you ARE ACHIEVING it.

Congrats on yet another loss, oh, greedy but thinner one! (G)

Coming up with goals as you have done is a great way of going.

I don't think there is anyway of avoiding the constant monitoring and consciousness. It is probably
a consequence of the 'addiction' mentality and fact that with drugs/alcohol you can give them up
completely. You cannot give up food. And we have to be willing to accept our weaknesses - FOOD.
But, yes, that is an issue, a real issue watching, weighing, watching, thinking, pushing stuff
away, limiting stuff, FOREVER. Is it worth it - you have to decide and RE-decide. And keep
deciding. Am I there? Right now. Redecide, redecide.......

I don't wish you luck - I wish you and me and the others WILLPOWER because that is what it will
take. Until, hopefully, it becomes natural.

Prairie Roots said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times this
week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see that I
didn't fill up my journal for last Saturday when I went back for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths, and 5ths on the
yogurt. Certainly a healthier overeating frenzy than my (formerly) usual binge foods of choice.
But a binge none the less. A rose by any other name...

Oh well, my l-lb. decrease got me to my mini-goal of 165, meaning that I'm now 20 lbs from my WW
goal. Is that unbelievable or what? It still seems unachievable. So I'm not thinking that far
ahead. I've set my next mini-goal at 162 for 70 lbs total loss. That's as improbable a notion as I
can handle today.

In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including (especially)
weight loss. Why bother? It takes a lot of effort, and for me at least, requires a measure of
attention to self I've not been accustomed to giving myself. For me, weight loss is a project, not
unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was giving a year or two
ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting, because
I get tired of giving so much thought to what I eat, what I'm weigh, figuring out what clothes
still fit, etc. She asked me what I would do if I quit. Would I maintain? Or gain? Maintain, of
course, I told her. And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give
thought to what I eat or what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and self-disgust.

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."

Ya know, I never thought of it that way before Lesanne. I wonder if that is why I put the weight
back on last time I had a fairly large loss (50 pounds). I hadn't reached my actual goal at the
time, just thought I looked good and was tired of the cardboard box program I was on. Since I hadn't
really reached normal weight, guess it didn't matter much to me as to whether I stayed there or not.
You are right though - now there is a definitive line drawn in the sand. Hmmmmm, something else to
ponder on.

Joyce

Lesanne said:

Wonderful loss! And great post in general. I can remember feeling so "done" both in the one eights
when I finally got there, and in the one Sevens. I am so so so so so so so glad I did not stop
short of goal. I did that. Tons of times. Every time I went back up, after all, if I was not
"normal weight" anyway, what difference a pound or two? Or ten? Or twenty? Now, at goal, there is a
line drawn in the sand. I can fuss around about being safely Under the line, but the idea of over
is repellent in the extreme to me. I would have to give up, for me, some credibility or something.
I had no idea I would feel like this. You are so incredibly "able" to do this. You have done this
already (lose 20) three times with leftovers. I found the last ten was actually not the hardest ten
for me. Go figure. I will send those thoughts your way. "Prairie Roots" <[email hidden]> wrote in
message "]news:[email hidden]...

Quoted message said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times
this week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see
that I didn't fill up my journal for last Saturday when I went back for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths, and
5ths on the yogurt. Certainly a healthier overeating frenzy than my (formerly) usual binge foods
of choice. But a binge none the less. A rose by any other name...

Oh well, my l-lb. decrease got me to my mini-goal of 165, meaning that I'm now 20 lbs from my WW
goal. Is that unbelievable or what? It still seems unachievable. So I'm not thinking that far
ahead. I've set my next mini-goal at 162 for 70 lbs total loss. That's as improbable a notion as
I can handle today.

In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including (especially)
weight loss. Why bother? It takes a lot of effort, and for me at least, requires a measure of
attention to self I've not been accustomed to giving myself. For me, weight loss is a project,
not unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was giving a year
or two ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting, because
I get tired of giving so much thought to what I eat, what I'm weigh, figuring out what clothes
still fit, etc. She asked me what I would do if I quit. Would I maintain? Or gain? Maintain, of
course, I told her. And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give
thought to what I eat or what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and self-disgust.

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."
--
Prairie Roots week 48: 232/165/WW goal 145 RAFL week 3: 167/165/154 next mini-goal: 165 (20 lbs
from WW goal) started WW 22-Feb-2003 | 10% target: 1-May-2003 5'4" | 50 | F

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:-( Bummer Kristin.
Don't you just hate when that happens? I suspect I will be the same this week.... Vanessa In OZ :-)
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Quoted message said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times
this week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see
that I didn't =

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In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including
(especially) weight loss. Why bother? It takes a =

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to giving myself. For me, weight loss =

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a project, not unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was
giving a year or two ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting,
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her.

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And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give thought to what I eat or
what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and =

self-disgust.

Quoted message said:

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."
--
Prairie Roots week 48: 232/165/WW goal 145 RAFL week 3: 167/165/154 next mini-goal: 165 (20 lbs
from WW goal) started WW 22-Feb-2003 | 10% target: 1-May-2003 5'4" | 50 | F

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weight=20 loss.<BR>><BR>> A week ago I was discussing all this with a = friend who=20 began
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losing.<BR>>=20 Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which = means<BR>>=20
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I did do a lighter lunch yesterday since I knew dinner was going to be more fun but it was only
because there was already only 1/2 of a sweet potato and pickles in the fridge (G) Yes, that was
pretty much lunch. With some blue cheese (less than an ounce) mid-afternoon.

But why I came back to this thread, a 3rd person joined us for the opera. A woman with diabetes -
she takes shots. She also has to monitor her food but with more serious consequences than us and she
had to do it in very interesting locales. She has climbed Mt Everest to about 27,000 feet but did
not make summit. She x-country skied across Finland last year (not recommended - boring, she said
(G)). Great, spirited person but she has a lifetime limitation. She has learned to accept it. No
desserts, few white starches.

We can do it but it will be hard on some days or weeks - Fred

Prairie Roots said:

Can I say "Yay I'm doing it!" and "You talking to me?" at the same time? I think I've got a
multiple personality disorder when it comes to weight. <G>

I'm working on accepting that doing what it takes may never become natural, as in "Grant me the
serenity to accept the things I cannot change..."

Thanks for the input, Fred. Right now I'm redeciding whether to eat lunch now, an hour and a half
late, or just skip lunch altogether since I'm going out for dinner tonight at a steakhouse where a
1-lb filet of salmon is on the dinner menu. Too bad I'm not on Atkins. <G> Hm, I think a 0-pt salad
now might be just the ticket so I don't overindulge later.

Prairie Roots

Fred said:

It IS ACHIEVABLE and you ARE ACHIEVING it.

Congrats on yet another loss, oh, greedy but thinner one! (G)

Coming up with goals as you have done is a great way of going.

I don't think there is anyway of avoiding the constant monitoring and consciousness. It is
probably a consequence of the 'addiction' mentality and fact that with drugs/alcohol you can give
them up completely. You cannot give up food. And we have to be willing to accept our weaknesses -
FOOD. But, yes, that is an issue, a real issue watching, weighing, watching, thinking, pushing
stuff away, limiting stuff, FOREVER. Is it worth it - you have to decide and RE-decide. And keep
deciding. Am I there? Right now. Redecide, redecide.......

I don't wish you luck - I wish you and me and the others WILLPOWER because that is what it will
take. Until, hopefully, it becomes natural.

Prairie Roots said:

24 Jan. 2004 My current weight: 165.0 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -1.0 lbs
Total weight change to date: -67.0 lbs

I'm greedy. I wanted to see a big loss on the scale this week. After all, I exercised 4 times
this week, and I stayed OP all week, using only 15 of my week's Flex Points... Oh wait, I see
that I didn't fill up my journal for last Saturday when I went back for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths, and
5ths on the yogurt. Certainly a healthier overeating frenzy than my (formerly) usual binge foods
of choice. But a binge none the less. A rose by any other name...

Oh well, my l-lb. decrease got me to my mini-goal of 165, meaning that I'm now 20 lbs from my WW
goal. Is that unbelievable or what? It still seems unachievable. So I'm not thinking that far
ahead. I've set my next mini-goal at 162 for 70 lbs total loss. That's as improbable a notion as
I can handle today.

In the dark days of January, I get to wondering about the point of things, including (especially)
weight loss. Why bother? It takes a lot of effort, and for me at least, requires a measure of
attention to self I've not been accustomed to giving myself. For me, weight loss is a project,
not unlike scrapbooking for other people. It takes up mental space and time I was giving a year
or two ago to other things I'm now giving to weight loss.

A week ago I was discussing all this with a friend who began WW herself in October (I was her
inspiration!!) and experiences WW similarly. I told her I sometimes think about quitting, because
I get tired of giving so much thought to what I eat, what I'm weigh, figuring out what clothes
still fit, etc. She asked me what I would do if I quit. Would I maintain? Or gain? Maintain, of
course, I told her. And how did I intend to maintain if I quit, she asked, if I didn't give
thought to what I eat or what I weigh?

That might be when it clicked in my head that this really is how I have to live my life. If WW
truly is a way of life and not a diet, there really isn't much difference between maintaining or
losing. Quitting means going back to my former way of eating, which means gaining. And quickly
returning to my old appearance and self-disgust.

Oh. So even though I'm still in the weight loss mode of WW, I'm already a lifetimer: I'm in this
for life.

Borrowing Walter Cronkite's signoff from his nightly newscasts: "And that's the way it is."