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Worried21
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Hi, I've got alot of questions about stuff and these newsgroups look to be the best place to ask.
Basically the problem is this. (this is a very long post so i apologise, i tend to ramble on alot)
Im 21 and I weigh 11.5 stone. When i was 11 i weighed 11, at age 12 i was 12 etc. this carried on
until I was 15 and weighed 15 stone, i stayed at this weight till i was 18/19. I was teased alot at
school and i hated my weight issue. Especially since girls said i had a really nice face, but my
body was too fat (kids are cruel!!).
Around 19 years old I had a big breakdown. I was very depressed due to lots of problems in my life
and in my past, one of which being my weight issue. I hardly ate. I had a few 'ryevetas' (cant spell
it, u know what i mean, rye crackers) a day and lots of water. thats it. I did this for 4 months and
went from 15 stone to about 10. I thought I looked fat still but my friend said i was too thin and u
could see my chest too much (i have a bit of a pigeon chest so it looked bad). I eventually agreed
that at 6 feet tall 10 stone wasnt enough. Regardless I was gloriously happy to have lost all the
weight. The reason i thought i was still fat was cause on my stomach i had excess skin, which i
presumed to be fat, but its just loose skin. This made me feel even worse, i cried all the time
worrying that I have ruined my body. My bum is flat, its just saggy skin. It looks like the bum of a
50 y/o man, not a 21 y/o. Its just handfulls of skin and it makes me sick. Im not being big headed
but im very good looking, i know i am and people dont understand why i have no confidence.
Its hard cause im in drama school and this world is so much about looks and looking good, especially
in the entertainment business. What hope do i have of been a good lookin actor guy with this messed
up body :-( I know alot of you will say its my own fault and I ruined my body, but i know this. It
annoys me cause I see this guy in my class and hes a bit podgy (like me now) but his bum is all
round and full and id adore to have that, mine is just flat and saggy with a crease at the bottom.
So I want to know what to do. Ive been to the gym and built muscle but that does not clear it away.
Should I put weight back on then lose it slowly so the skin can tighten?? I have been offered
modeling work a few times but i have no confidence, and i know that when they see my upper body ill
be laughed at :-(
Reading this i sound vain, i am in a way, but everyone who wants to improve their look is vain in a
way. I just want to look like other young guys, not a middle aged man.
Thank you for reading this and before you judge me try hard to understand how much this worrys me.
Worried guy.
Basically the problem is this. (this is a very long post so i apologise, i tend to ramble on alot)
Im 21 and I weigh 11.5 stone. When i was 11 i weighed 11, at age 12 i was 12 etc. this carried on
until I was 15 and weighed 15 stone, i stayed at this weight till i was 18/19. I was teased alot at
school and i hated my weight issue. Especially since girls said i had a really nice face, but my
body was too fat (kids are cruel!!).
Around 19 years old I had a big breakdown. I was very depressed due to lots of problems in my life
and in my past, one of which being my weight issue. I hardly ate. I had a few 'ryevetas' (cant spell
it, u know what i mean, rye crackers) a day and lots of water. thats it. I did this for 4 months and
went from 15 stone to about 10. I thought I looked fat still but my friend said i was too thin and u
could see my chest too much (i have a bit of a pigeon chest so it looked bad). I eventually agreed
that at 6 feet tall 10 stone wasnt enough. Regardless I was gloriously happy to have lost all the
weight. The reason i thought i was still fat was cause on my stomach i had excess skin, which i
presumed to be fat, but its just loose skin. This made me feel even worse, i cried all the time
worrying that I have ruined my body. My bum is flat, its just saggy skin. It looks like the bum of a
50 y/o man, not a 21 y/o. Its just handfulls of skin and it makes me sick. Im not being big headed
but im very good looking, i know i am and people dont understand why i have no confidence.
Its hard cause im in drama school and this world is so much about looks and looking good, especially
in the entertainment business. What hope do i have of been a good lookin actor guy with this messed
up body :-( I know alot of you will say its my own fault and I ruined my body, but i know this. It
annoys me cause I see this guy in my class and hes a bit podgy (like me now) but his bum is all
round and full and id adore to have that, mine is just flat and saggy with a crease at the bottom.
So I want to know what to do. Ive been to the gym and built muscle but that does not clear it away.
Should I put weight back on then lose it slowly so the skin can tighten?? I have been offered
modeling work a few times but i have no confidence, and i know that when they see my upper body ill
be laughed at :-(
Reading this i sound vain, i am in a way, but everyone who wants to improve their look is vain in a
way. I just want to look like other young guys, not a middle aged man.
Thank you for reading this and before you judge me try hard to understand how much this worrys me.
Worried guy.